I'll admit, when I want something I want it BADLY. I'm the kind of person who becomes infatuated with something and let it influence/overtake my life. I'm a determined person but determination alone sometimes gets you nowhere.

Was surfing around for colleges/unis. Planning for the future is not a bad thing since it's just around the corner. Only problem now is I have a decision to make:

A) Drop Salsa classes
B) Drop Mandarin classes

I want to drop Salsa and take up another hobby. Problem is, if I apply next year and they require a talent at least I'll have Salsa to fall back on. If I drop Mandarin, it would clear all my problems but 1) mum won't let me and 2) Mandarin is a REALLY useful language 3) I'm going to China soon so Mandarin will definitely prove useful among locals.

Either that or I'll keep both and take up my new hobby anyway. So I'll have Add Maths, Maths, BM tuition plus Salsa, Mandarin and new hobby next year. No matter how much I try to teach myself and immerse myself, nothing is better than having a personal tutor. *sigh*

Next year is when my dreams come true so I guess I should plan and plan well? :/ Sometimes I don't know why I put myself through this shit. But then I think about it and realise I want to prove to be the very best I can be. Rise above the ashes. Show your friends what you're made of. Show everyone that I am the best and nobody can deny it when they see proof.

And there you go, another rant of Nicole's full of determination and self-confidence/infalted ego. How typical of her. Putting herself before others and being selfish is what she does best you know? Not a surprise.

Labels: Future