devoid of all emotion. too depressed to do anything right now

is it possible to be so happy one day to so depressed the next?

Well, I got to the venue pretty early (let's just say I was the first person there >.>). The venue wasn't too big and the stage where F.T. Island where to sit wasn't big either. When I got there nothing seemed to be up: the background poster, the sound system, the line barriers (not sure what they're called), the CD booth, the "backstage" area - NOTHING. Basically, the organisers were not ready for anything. And this is just the starting.

By 10 am, finally the organisers arrived. They set up the pre-ordered CD booth at around...11.30? The background poster was only put up at 12.45p.m. and by then there were plenty of people around. FT was supposed to arrive at 1.00p.m. which is when the session would start but by 2.00p.m. nobody had seen anything even resembling Won Bin's arm.

The crowd by this time was getting pretty restless. Then finally a staff member came up onstage to inform us that FT were still in their HOTEL! Their hotel was Grand Millenium, located in the heart of Kuala Lumpur whereas we were in the suburbs (Petaling Jaya). A trip from KL to PJ on a weekend especially Saturday would normally take an hour to arrive. To pass the time, the organisers pulled a few people from the crowd and gave away free tickets to anyone who could answer really STUPID questions like, "Who's your favourite member?" and "Sing your favourite song."

3.30 p.m. came and went and FT was nowhere to be seen. Everybody was pretty much fed up and wondering whether they were going to show up or not. Then around 4.15p.m chaos ensued. FINALLY WE GOT TO SEE OUR BELOVED BOYS. The first person to emerge from the crowd if I remember correctly was Jung Hoon, followed by the rest with Won Bin last. And the best thing was they all wore yellow! And Won Bin was in a tanktop. xD They came up, greeted the crowd and said some things I wasn't really paying attention to cause the crowd was too loud. Besides, I was too busy taking photos. xD

Finally the session started and everyone who was in the Local and International Fan Packages by CI entertainment got top priority. Fine. When they finally opened the lines to the public we were instructed to get in a line and go in groups of 5. I was in the first group from the public and the girl number 5. Each boy was seated from left to right as follows:

Jae Jin -> Jung Hoon -> Min Hwan -> Hong Gi -> WON BIN.

Then comes the punchline. For the public (IE, non fan package people) we were told that we were only entitled to ONE MEMBER'S AUTOGRAPH. . THAT WAS JUST IT. They were pretty much implying to our faces that we had to PAY for their autographs. THE CROWD WAS GOING CRAZY AND PRETTY MUCH BOOING THE ORGANISERS AND SO WAS I. And the worst thing, we weren't allowed to choose who we wanted. Because the girl who was first got Won Bin and the second girl got Hong Gi, etc etc, I got landed with Jae Jin when I wanted Won Bin.

I won't lie, when I went up onstage I wanted to run to Won Bin. Then I realised that he was taken and Jae Jin was looking at me expectantly waiting for me to approach him. I was contemplating running to Won Bin and leaving Jae Jin. Then I realised that Jae Jin would have nobody and that would make ME and him look bad, in front of EVERYBODY. And even if I ran to Won Bin, the guards would just shove me back to Jae Jin and he might be offended with me for running to Won Bin in the first place instead of him. Anyway before I could make any decision, their damn manager (who was super bossy), pushed me towards Jae Jin and I automatically plonked my CD down and he smiled. Oh well, Jae Jin is still FT right? I don't have a problem with Jae Jin, in fact I like him, but...I wanted Won Bin. : (

Jae Jin was really sweet to me. He said "Anyeonghaseyo" when I approached and signed my CD while talking to Jung Hoon. His voice is really low and his skin is really smooth. He was wearing a white hat. When he was done he looked into my eyes, and shook my hands with both hands and smiled. I seriously thought I was going to die from a heart attack. Then to exit I had to pass all the other boys and when I passed Won Bin I had a GOOD LOOOOONG LOOK. He definitely is the one member who looks better in real life. Those arm muscles, WOW.

Despite arriving REALLY LATE (really, from 1.00pm to 4.15p.m.? What gives?) C.I. Entertainment had the gall to end it after an hour. AN HOUR!! Imagine all the disappointed/angry/sad/enraged faces there were in the crowd. And there was still a lot of people left!! After a quick media photo taking session and speech, FT made their way out.

Chaos. There was chaos everywhere. Everyone was pushing, screaming and shoving cameras EVERYWHERE. I ran, got caught up in a crowd, ended up right in front and suddenly FT came passing by right in front of my eyes and I whipped out my camera just in time to take a video (which I'll post up later). Jae Jin walked out first, followed by Hong Gi, Min Hwan, Jung Hoon and Won Bin in tow. Not one to miss an opportunity (and a little disappointed I didn't get his autograph) , I followed Won Bin from the side, like RIGHT NEXT TO HIM. He was so close to me! I screamed his name multiple times and waved my hand in front of him only to get no response. Disappointed, I saw the treasure in front of me and TOUCHED HIS BACK. No response again. Damn pissed now, I stretched out as far as I could go and TOUCHED HIS BARE LEFT SHOULDER. I will never forget what it felt like. His skin was smooth like a babies', and springy to the touch. And the best thing? He turned around and smiled at me. AT ME. AT ME! :D

Then suddenly "BAM!" someone shoved me and the large crowd of screaming girls next to me plus a security fell down like dominoes. I landed on top of another girl who cushioned my fall. Felt really sorry for her and apologized profusely but she was okay. Oh, did I mention the whole time I was chasing the boys I was filming as well? I now have NIIICE videos of Won Bin. You can see how close I was. There's one where they all formed a train and Jung Hoon waved at the camera.

FT were then chased down escalators and out the building where they had to wait in the drizzle for their transport to arrive. I decided not to follow cause I was dazed from touching Won Bin. And I was dazed from falling down. And people were pushing on the escalators, very dangerous and scary. Rachel did though, she actually pushed her way down, begged the security guard and got videos of them waiting for their transport to arrive in the drizzle.

Overall, I thought F.T. Island were great boys; they definitely lived up to my expectations and more (OMG WON BIN HUBBA HUBBA). The crowd was enthusiastic but I really need to lament about the organizers. For one, they were not organized in the first place! Two, FT's really LATE arrival. Three, the rudeness of the staff. The staff were really rude to everybody shouting and shoving fans even when we weren't going crazy. Let's hope it get better tomorrow, when I go for the concert.

You know what, I'm really pissed at C.I. Entertainment. But, at least I wasn't one of the unfortunate fans who didn't get an autograph AT ALL. And at least I got Jae Jin's, who is probably the most famous member (Unstoppable Marriage). So watch KBS World every Monday-Friday, 4.20p.m-5.00p.m. Unstoppable Marriage. The boy who plays the youngest son, Sa Baek was Jae Jin who I have shaken hands with and stared into his brown orbs of light.

Labels: BEST DAY OF MY LIFE, fangirling, FIERCE BITCHES, FT Island, Life milestones

Actually, there is exactly 12 hours to go. Right now it's 11 p.m and the fan meeting starts at 11 a.m. tomorrow. Homgosh, I'm so pumped, so excited, so exhilarated...! I was excited for DBSK but the thought of actually seeing FT Island UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL with their body heat, sweat and all sends shivers up my spine.

Looking through fan forums to pass the hours faster. Dammit, they arrived in KLIA on Thursday at 4.50pm and there were only about what, 30 people there to greet them. WHAT??!?!!? SHIT. WHAT WAS I DOING ON THURSDAY AFTERNOON????

Oh right, I was at Sammie's place playing with her Wii. Argh, I would so give up an afternoon of Wii-ing (lol) to meet Won Bin up close. Too late now. I don't get to see them up close and now my arm hurts from all that moving around. The joints near my elbow hurt like hell whenever I hit it and I can't stretch properly. O_O But, from all that at least I got to beat Sammie's dad's record in training. 8 POINTS!!! :D

So...to make myself (and yourself, lol whatever) feel better, here are photos!

(Full credit to posters on the FT Island Soompi forum.)

Arriving in KLIA!

Gosh, knowing me the next time I go to the airport I'm going to rub my shoes and take photos around the departure hall JUST so I can say that F.T. Island stood in the same spot as me. Lol!

Crap, normally I don't like Min Hwan, he's my least favourite but HOMG SO CUTE! *glomps*

Jong Hun arriving at a restaurant somewhere in KL called Izzi. (dammit, why wasn't I there -_-)

11.12 p.m., 11 hours and 48 minutes to go! :D :D :D

Labels: fangirling, FT Island

School was boring today. Some teacher retired and everyone ended up spending the whole day mooching around. Staying back after school was alot more fun though. Prepared our tent decorations, went to the new art building to help with oil paintings/be a busybody and then went over the Vivian's to finalize our business transaction. I am now the proud owner of a pair of brand-new-never-worn-before-hand-carried-from-Japan pair of whore shoes. Spent the rest of my hours left flipping through fashion magazines, going through Vivian's closet, and swapping bargain and fashion tips, lol.

Anyway, that's not the main attraction of this post today. Came home from school this afternoon and my mother informed me of our little "prisoner".


Isn't he damn adorable?!! Take pity on the poor fella, he's swimming in my dustbin full of smelly rain water. My mother refuses to tip over to let him go because she feels that this poor little vermin deserves it. In a way I guess I understand, rats are vectors and spread diseases from one organism to another but HE IS JUST TOO DAMN CUTE.

When Sammie came over it was lagi sad cause when we were watching him, at one point he started squeaking and making air bubbles trying to breathe. He swam around the whole bin trying to escape while we watched him with sad eyes. :( Anyway I proposed to name him Ratatouille, but Sammie was like, "Aw HELL NAW."

So I hereby christen him:
OHKURA.

Krystle is probably thinking as she reads this, 'WTF NICOLE YOU HATE HIM."
Yes, I do hate Ohkura. But the resemblance is uncanny is it not? See for yourself.


Ohkura the Japanese idol.


Ohkura the drowning rat in my bin.
Naming him Ohkura doesn't make me feel so bad after all. : )

Pictures above were taken at around 5p.m-ish. Went for tuition and came back at 7. During class there was heavy downpour with lightning and wind and everything. I expected to get back to a dead corpse but nooooooooo....

HE'S A LITTLE TROOPER! Ohkura YOU SO FIERCE! xD
Must be the McDonald's...
Sammie proposed I end his torture and just kill him off, but my mother told me if I added more water into the bin Ohkura might just swim out of the bin. -_-;;

SO, as I write this (approximately 1.07 AM) Ohkura is still out there (alive? who knows) and I will let you know his status when I check on him tomorrow morning. Till then...

Ohkura says "PEACE!"

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5 MORE DAYS.

Labels: FIERCE BITCHES, FT Island, Ohkura the rat

SO, as the title says I FINALLY went out today since...ages! Went to One U today to meet up with Rachel, Vivian, Elizabeth + other people, and to pick up my brand new totally gorgeous precious F.T. Island CD that Rachel reserved in Rock Corner.


Costs freaking RM81.90! But I consoled myself when I opened it and found out there was a photobook, about 10 shop photos of each individual member and next Saturday it will be held and signed by F.T. Island themselves. (hopefully)


Lunch at TGIF.



Did soooo much shopping today. Rachel and I actually wanted to go karaoke (Fact: it's Rachel's dream to belt out "I Will Always Love You" by Whitney Houston and mine is "My Heart Will Go On" by Celine Dion. Now you know) but the rest weren't keen and wanted to shop. Seeing as 2 people going karaoke by themselves is a very sad thing (in doramas), we decided to waste time wandering around.

Oh, and we went hunting for yellow T-shirts. F.T. Island's fan colour is Sunshine Yellow. I got mine for RM29.90 plus discount. xP Bought 2, one for concert and one for the fan meeting.

Plus, I got this gorgeous dress from TopShop! Been eye-ing this for quite long and today they reduced the price, SO HAPPY!
(wearing a hat, that's why half my head looks chopped off)

Labels: FASHION, FT Island

12 days? :D

idk, boredom.

Went to the post office with Krystle today. We had to send in our exchange applications and weren't sure how to err... send a letter. Acted like jakuns while debating whether or not to line up not to line up. Argued over postal orders and money orders. In the end the guy at the counter who served us was really nice, really patient and really helpful. So kudos to Pos Malaysia for hiring such considerate workers. Kudos to the fella for answering our really dumb questions (do the stamps go left or right? How many stamps do we need to put? Where to buy ah? This postal order, where do I fill in? Post box outside right?)

Ho hum.

I finished Jotei!! It was really good and suspenseful but the ending was kind of...well not the kind of ending I wanted. I really wanted Ayaka to spit on Rina face or something but that didn't happen because Ayaka is a jotei and jotei have class and dignity. But I guess it satisfied everything, no loose ends anywhere.

One thing though, Jotei really gave me a good insight on the Host Club/Hostess Club world. As a person who wants to save up to go to one in the future, I really found the whole drama educational in some ways. Well, if my dreams of owning a Love Hotel don't happen, I aspire to be a club mama! I'll call my club "Nikko" like Nikko Hotel and I'll be known in the night world of Ginza as Nikko Mama.

Such are my fantasies. (they'll never happen)


King of the Night Hosts. He parts his fellow hosts like Jesus (or was it Moses?) parts the sea.

He's so hot, Ayaka will lick his shoes.

Man, I love this dorama.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMMIE!

Today's your birthday which means you're one step closer to learning how to drive! Think of all the concerts and fan meetings you can chauffeur me to and all those trips to the mall we can make without needing our parents. 17 means we've been together for 9 years! May you have a happy 17 and enjoy your Salsa CD (although you probably already have). Chu~!




SAMMIE GET A WII! GET A WII, OKAY!
So we can play this:



^_^

S'cuse the past few days for not updating. Had exams and now they're finally over, I can laze around at home and sew my mascot costume for Sports Day. I am not looking forward to handsewing a dress, but it has to be done. : ( [Bring on Project Runway Season 2! The episode where they had to make outfits using flowers from the market or something like that]

Anyway, I've never watched an episode of American Idol in my life (too boring) but oh God, this year I'm totally supporting DANNY NORIEGA. Are all the David supporters blind? Look at Danny! He's the exact spitting image of my KIM HEE CHUL. Danny is like, the American Hee Chul! If Idol doesn't work out for you Danny bb, go join a boyband. :) Better yet, go to Korea and join a boyband. :P Danny has the exact same face, same attitude, it's scary. But he's still a FIERCE BITCH.

(Ok the photos I put here don't really make them look alike, but I'm really not lying!)

Labels: Bishounen, FIERCE BITCHES, Super Junior